Surrender

There is a special kind of joy in a complete surrender. This feels new to me. It gives up a bliss that is strange and powerful, and I think I can find this in other venues too. It's more, much more, than endorphin release. It reaches me deeply, and the strength of the energy flow I get from this is nothing less than amazing.

I'd hazard a guess that a similar kind of surrender, properly negotiated and set up as a scene, could bring a similar flow. That's something to shoot for this time.

Anticipay-yay-shun

...is making me crazy.

Winterfire approacheth.

I am getting the odd edgy feeling.

Have set one good wax date. Maybe have a bottom date - a really strong flogging or caning would be nice RIGHT NOW. Might even have a fire date - ah, memories of the pool abound, and that scar is still part of the body landscape!

I'm thinking I want to go out on the ledge, seriously out. The link between high endorphins and state of mind past sex is of interest.