Sighing

Like leaves. In the cold grey sky.

Honestly, I sometimes wish I had not fallen quite so far, so deep in love. It can hurt. It can be happy, sad, crazy, silly, mad.

And the power of the moment can carry me forward, even as I despair about the future.

Makes no sense.

Something luscious this way comes

There's something particularly wonderful about waking up to a warmth of covers. It's not so cold (yet!) that my bits are frozen, just chilly enough so that the blankets envelop me in a kind of semi-sleepy haze. The wonderfully erotic charge that happens when wakening enhances the moments. I don't want to get out of bed - this is too nice.

The chance to touch, feel, energize - it's all good.

More, please, sir?

The ________ cometh

(Not having the proper term, I used _ to denote something - it ain't the iceman!)

Funny. As I get closer to Winterfire, I am more at peace about it all. Increased levels of experience seem to be behind it, as well as a newly found sense of self that lets me be ok with the way I am. Non-standard is not bad - it cvan be a positive thing.

Surrender

There is a special kind of joy in a complete surrender. This feels new to me. It gives up a bliss that is strange and powerful, and I think I can find this in other venues too. It's more, much more, than endorphin release. It reaches me deeply, and the strength of the energy flow I get from this is nothing less than amazing.

I'd hazard a guess that a similar kind of surrender, properly negotiated and set up as a scene, could bring a similar flow. That's something to shoot for this time.

Anticipay-yay-shun

...is making me crazy.

Winterfire approacheth.

I am getting the odd edgy feeling.

Have set one good wax date. Maybe have a bottom date - a really strong flogging or caning would be nice RIGHT NOW. Might even have a fire date - ah, memories of the pool abound, and that scar is still part of the body landscape!

I'm thinking I want to go out on the ledge, seriously out. The link between high endorphins and state of mind past sex is of interest.

Hot Wax

I learned that self administered hot wax is not only fun, but practical to do.

A three hour photo shoot led to a conclusion of a very amazing hot wax series. My gear, her camera.

The main issue was being able to safely pour from the right height and knowing where I was about to hit! That was tricky - and I think that if I do something like it again (I want to, as this was the end of a pretty long hard process, and I was not so good at that point at getting and maintaining a really good erection - just too physically tired! Addin gthat in would be really amazing) Other than that, it is doable.

And practical to give a full waxing to an upright body, excepting the issue of breasts and how to ensure even flow underneath same. No simple solution there. But it DOES mean I can administer this to a dear friend who asked me for this delight! Mmm mm.

But, ooh la la! Hot Wax is golden for euphoric highs.